Winter

It's winter, now..
In my heart
I'm sitting on a bench..
Waiting..

Choices

To let others comfort u, OR find ur own peace.. nurture ur heart
To see that u can't depend on everyone, OR to let ur self grow even stronger than before
To blame others for their limitation to drag u out of the dark, OR to be grateful that they're still willing to get close to u in the dark
To busy arguing with others, OR to calm down yourself first then build a real deep talk
To let distance be the limit to your love, OR to let love diminish the distance

Those are the matter of choice
TO BUSY LIVE, or TO BUSY DIED - Reginna Brett-

To consider my post "Selfish & childish talk" as a random words from the upset heart OR a suggestion
It's up to you
 

Selfish & Childish talk

There's a time when I feel so "All by myself"
Can't count on anybody, even the one that I trusted the most
Said that they will be there
but, they not "totally there"
many people can't trully understand how to accompanied others
For me, when u accompanied someone
u should be able to present ur self
ur time, mind, stories.. the whole you, just for that person AT THAT TIME

Give them a comfortable feeling, inspired them
not busy with your own world, own stuffs.. then just said some idea based on your experiences
Your life, is not theirs
One thing that has worked in your life, might not work on others AT THAT TIME

To be frank, distance deactivated one's main function
the main function is very simple : to be there, next to your mate
to say that u still love them or u will always be there is easy
but when it comes to PROVE that u really mean it.. it's hard
even when u mean it, sometimes.. ur words can't be warm enough
for the people out there
I know, it sucks

A phone call won't help much nor many text messages
If the one, that u call is still drowned into their own thought
U hv to attract that person to get out from their hole
at least, make them look up to you
Distract their mind

Don't wish, they will flooding u with many words
Some people can be so quiet
You, should inspired them to talk

Repost

Life Lessons at 56

May 31st, 2012 by Regina Brett

After having cancer 14 years ago, every birthday is a gift. I get to grow old. What a joy. .

 To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.
It is the most-requested column I've ever written. It has traveled the world.

Someone wrote at the top of that email chain letter that I'm 90. My odometer actually rolls over to 56 today, so here's an update:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

 

51.To be a channel of peace, you have to stay open. To do that, relax your heart.

 

52. Consult your own soul. Deep inside you already know the answers you need.

 

53. Interruptions are divine assignments.

 

54. God doesn't always call the strong. Sometimes you have to be weak enough to serve.

 

55. Start where you are and get busy on the possible.

 

56. Love life unconditionally. Love it ALL.

How to save a life - The Fray

"How To Save A Life"

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How to save a life

Got to embrace this little happiness

I already reach the very end of my darkest cliff

I've been there for more than 3 days

So hollow and frustrating

So cold

 I won't ever go back again

My boring days are still here

The pain is still here too

but

There's no reason to cried anymore

No.. I gotta live

with or without anybody

I got to embrace this little happiness that I have

Won't let that stupid demon mind steal my hope away

 

Terribly damaged

I'm terribly damaged..

I can't understand why I have such a great power to let them destroy my self
but..
I'm so powerless to just trusting someone who always stand by me
just to hold a hand that always try to reach me

why I can't just remember the good memories
and forget the reality?
why I'm not even dare to take a love that sincerely given to me
why I can't stop my mind from those evil things
and just move on with my life

One thing failed.. okay
2.. yeah still okay
3.. damn it!! it hurts, but gotta be strong
4..
5..
 ............

I'm lost
lost to be a person I used to